In the meantime, I am praying and waiting and praying. I also remind myself of all the times when jobs, housing, clothing, and even a little coffeemaker showed up right when we needed it. Back in the day, I would have been panic-stricken at the thought of the disaster about to overtake me, sending my blood pressure soaring to unimaginable heights. And to what effect? Now that I am working my final month the need for a new job is more on my mind, but I have learned to be calm in my faith.
This evening as I was bringing the cat dish into the house to clean and refill, I recalled where the dish came from. We were helping a couple clean out their home in preparation for moving, and a lot of perfectly good items they didn’t have room for, including assorted paraphernalia for the care of a cat, wound up in the back of the pickup. We didn’t have a cat so I checked to see if a neighbor wanted them and contemplated giving it all to Goodwill. In the end, it all stayed tucked away until I had time to deal with it. A few months later, Cat showed up.
When it comes to the animals of the world, both small and great,
Psalm 104:27-30 (ESV) reads
27) These all look to you [God], to give them their food in due season.
28) When you give it to them, they gather it up; when you open your hand, they are filled with good things.
29) When you hide your face, they are dismayed, when you take away their breath, they die and return to their dust.
30 When you send forth your Spirit, they are created, and you renew the face of the ground.
God can take care of a little cat, even to the point where everything necessary to take care of her winds up on my doorstep shortly before the cat shows up. God can certainly take care of me. Jesus said our heavenly Father knows we have need of food and clothing and shelter.
I have finally learned not to worry. Instead, I stand in faith and I wait curiously to see what God will do.